| I might go bald.
50% chance.
50% of a turn around.
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| It's weird not knowing how many could hate your guts but you still could be talking to them. o.o
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| I'm ready to move on~ which i should've been for over a year anyways.
I think I already have a while ago anyways since he disappeared for this summer
but he'll always have a special place in my heart
even though he might not be what I thought he was
he had some trust in me right? to tell me so personal information about himself that was all true..
i had some worth to him right? :/
eh.. aw well.
i just wish it would be easier not to care.
i'm waiting for a reply from him and hopefully i'll get one back.
i'm actually scared to never talk to him again but it seems like it might happen.
what happened to the promise of never drifitng? its already happening.
you didn't even bother to tell me you had another one or a new number.
i don't matter do i?
eh. bye anyways.
STILL PRAYING FOR KUU MAMAAA~ ;u;
she getting better! <33 i'm happy @u@
now Kuu~ you need to take care of yourself too, love! <33
i love youuu! o//o
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| ;-;
I'm stuckkk!
I just applied for a job at the Mayo clinic as a cashierrr but I promised my manager for the sushi place that I would work at her new place. ;-;
Now I know I might not get the job but I still feel badd. T-T But if I do get the job oh my god. ;u; I'd be happy to
But the pay..oh my godd. D;
$11.51 an hour.
and you sit the whole time you work. D:
last time i went with my mama to see her work place..there were a bunch of fat girls sitting there at the cash register. D:
HOSPITAL =/= PROMOTE GOOD HEALTH. XDDD
At our managers new place I'd be making $7.50 or so with no tips or anything and no free foood. D; Manager getting cheap!
I'd like to make more money and If I get the job I'd be happy but I feel bad. ;-; Am I supposed to tell my manager I applied somewhere else? I don't knowww.
and i'm picking the music for the new place too..T-T it'd be so nice to work with your musiccc.
but like the thing is i heard that if you want to work for the hospital later on or want to be a nurse or something..D: the hospital will pay everything for youuu. that'd be so nice. ;-;
mayo clinic is also hard to get in too. D:
ahh. ;-; i hope i get it but i hope i don't at the same timeee!
BUT THIS TUESDAY= ROAD TEST. 8DDDD
i seriously hope i pass. it would be a dream come true. if i do pass then the wednesday after i could drive to work with anna. o//o
instead of biking. XDD!
i hope we both pass. ;u; it'd be so nice.
but i phailed my permit test twice. ;-; bahhhh.
well i got everything down pretty much only a few problems with parking still. D:
ahh. i'm scared. ;-;
wish me luckk! :D
oh. and i really want to see hamlet 2.
XDD i'm totally getting a laugh out of all the christians wanting to boycott the movie.
stupid people too into their religion. D;
don't need god to be happy, dumb asses.
BAHHH~
life is complicated. :(
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| i hate feeling worthless.
i hate feeling like if i die no body would care
maybe a few tears here and there but that's it maybe?
i know in reality there would be more from family at least though.
i'm so easily replaceable it's not even funny.
there is nothing omg amazing about me and i don't know why my self esteem has dropped so much.
i feel so friggen antisocial and that has barely every happened before. D;
im scared to go to school because 2nd semester for 10th grade was like 8 hours= 6/7 hours where i barely spoke a word.
i hate being that lonely.
8th grade was heaven for me.
i hate being whinyy.
a lot of people have it a lot worse
i have no right to be complaining do i?
ugh i just hate being lonely.
i hate being so worthless.
but i love it when people smile when i smile and say hi to them
it brightens up my day.
ughhh. why couldn't i be more care free? for some reason ive gotten like..10x more shy this year.
i'm scareddddd. x-x
well maybe this is just a phase or growing up? :o probably. aw well.
tomorrow will be better and the next day. and this year i'll do my best to make more friends.
but why is it so hard to make friends now?
ughhhhhhhh ;-;
anime conventionnn in 4 days. <3
driving test in a few weeks. <3
mamapapa ill make you happpppppppppy. >:[
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